I don’t have a ton of childhood/teenaged/college-years memories. I know that seems like a weird thing to say, but it’s true. I don’t know if it’s because I only remember the really “big” events, like certain birthdays or family vacations, or if it’s because I’ve blocked stuff out. Not in the I-have -traumatic-memories-and-can-only-function-if-they-are-cut-off-in-my-brain kind of way, but just in the there-is-only-so-much-room-in-my-head-and-the-last-10-years-are-pretty-much-taking-up-all-the -space kind of way.
For example, one of my sorority sisters will start talking about some party we were at (15 years ago) and talk about funny things that happened and I have NO recollection. Not of the party, not of the specific funny things, not of the people she says was there. And, I don’t know why I can’t remember. While those memories aren’t particularly important to me, I can’t remember, or remember very well other things that I feel I should.
I was on a daily prescription drug for my migraines for over 2 years, that had some major side effects. I really wouldn’t be surprised if memory loss was one of those side effects. Or, I could just be a bad rememberer.
But, it bothers me. I don’t like having these gaping holes in my history. I don’t like not knowing if something was really the way I remember it (vaguely) or if it was something entirely else and my brain is just trying to fill in the blanks.
Are you a good rememberer?
For example, one of my sorority sisters will start talking about some party we were at (15 years ago) and talk about funny things that happened and I have NO recollection. Not of the party, not of the specific funny things, not of the people she says was there. And, I don’t know why I can’t remember. While those memories aren’t particularly important to me, I can’t remember, or remember very well other things that I feel I should.
I was on a daily prescription drug for my migraines for over 2 years, that had some major side effects. I really wouldn’t be surprised if memory loss was one of those side effects. Or, I could just be a bad rememberer.
But, it bothers me. I don’t like having these gaping holes in my history. I don’t like not knowing if something was really the way I remember it (vaguely) or if it was something entirely else and my brain is just trying to fill in the blanks.
Are you a good rememberer?
2 comments:
I'm not a good rememberer either and it makes me wonder if I really did see someone killed in my basement at 11. Not seriously - but - it just seems unfair/strange/disconcerting that I cant remember things.
That's why printing my blog before downtime started was important....I don't want to forget these days/weeks/years with Lexi.
I'm exactly like you and I think it drives my hubby nuts. He can remember exactly where he was the first time he heard a song on the radio. We've been together for almost 30 years and he will remember things that I don't. And as for growing up--I remember the big things, but not the day to day stuff. I've always wondered if there is something that made me forget, or if I'm just bad at it.
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