I was just told, in a very casual way, that not only was I not going to be put up for Partner this year, but there are several other people who will be. Out of all those “other people” none have more seniority than me and some I have heard some VERY uncomplimentary things about. When the shock was written all over my face, the informant realized that, perhaps, it shouldn’t have been revealed so casually. She had no idea that I expected to be put up for partner this year. I don’t know why, as this is my NINTH year at this firm! (I was “eligible” at 7 years).
I can’t even put into words, accurately, how I feel right now. To a certain extent, I feel betrayed, overlooked, hurt, angry and like I have wasted a whole lot of precious time.
I wasn’t expecting this information today. I thought decisions weren’t made until June. Apparently, the vote occurs in June, but as far back as January the “campaigning” for who would be put up for partner began.
And, I had no idea.
And, my boss did not campaign for me.
I am working for a person who does not care to see me advance in any way whatsoever. Not out of malice. Not out of any ill-begotten sentiment towards me. Rather, it’s out of a lack of interest or lack of relevancy to his own life that has allowed him to overlook the fact that the only way for me to advance at this firm is with his help. Without a partner to advocate for me, there is no chance of being put up.
There are many things I like about my job: the commute is ideal (8 minutes from home); my bosses are very nice; I know what I’m doing (after several years of practice); and I’m not billable (I don’t have to keep track of my hours).
But, none of this stacks up to being unappreciated, unnoticed and unconsidered. The only form of recognition at my firm is to make partner. That’s it.
And, I didn’t make it.
Again.
I can’t even put into words, accurately, how I feel right now. To a certain extent, I feel betrayed, overlooked, hurt, angry and like I have wasted a whole lot of precious time.
I wasn’t expecting this information today. I thought decisions weren’t made until June. Apparently, the vote occurs in June, but as far back as January the “campaigning” for who would be put up for partner began.
And, I had no idea.
And, my boss did not campaign for me.
I am working for a person who does not care to see me advance in any way whatsoever. Not out of malice. Not out of any ill-begotten sentiment towards me. Rather, it’s out of a lack of interest or lack of relevancy to his own life that has allowed him to overlook the fact that the only way for me to advance at this firm is with his help. Without a partner to advocate for me, there is no chance of being put up.
There are many things I like about my job: the commute is ideal (8 minutes from home); my bosses are very nice; I know what I’m doing (after several years of practice); and I’m not billable (I don’t have to keep track of my hours).
But, none of this stacks up to being unappreciated, unnoticed and unconsidered. The only form of recognition at my firm is to make partner. That’s it.
And, I didn’t make it.
Again.
4 comments:
I am really, really sorry for your disappointment. It is hurtful to feel overlooked and unappreciated.
Oh honey I'm so very sorry.
Get an offer - doesn't matter from where - and let it slip you have it to someone who has the ear of someone higher on the food chain than your boss. Gossip spreads quicker than you realize.
I worked at a law firm a long time ago and I felt this with my gut. I'm sorry. I hope you'll say something too him, nine years is a long time to give your best to someone.
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